Saturday, January 15, 2011

Ache

I certainly don't want to sound like a broken record, but my friend Joanne still desperately needs your prayers. Due to some seizures she had yesterday, doctors put her in a medically induced coma to give her brain and body a chance to rest and heal. That's really all I know at this point. Again, the best way to get information is to follow Joanne's blog, Janna's blog, or tobenheim on Twitter.

I can't tell you how much my heart aches for her family. Not just her husband, but her daughters, her parents and her sister too.

I so desperately want to KNOW this is all going to turn out good.

I believe God can heal her and I'm trusting that's His plan, but what I really want is certainty.

It really all boils down to control.

I want to control the outcome. Not just in Joanne's situation but in almost every daily situation I face.

I hate it when I don't feel like I'm in control. I hate it even more when I catch a glimpse of myself striving for it. I'm trying to cast off the need to control and remember that it's a load that I've not been asked to carry. It's harder than it sounds...

10 comments:

*carrie* said...

Mer,

Just read the latest update on Joanne's blog. So very sad and scary! Continuing to pray . . .

We've received a lot of heavy news this week, and are actually expecting a phone call anyday about the passing of E's grandma.

Brenda said...

Hi Meredith,
I went over to Joanne's blog and got caught up on everything going on with her. My heart breaks for them all with the pain they must be going through.
Yes, we will agree with all of you in prayer for her healing and restoration.

Sitesx6 said...

I'm so sorry.

I think about her constantly, and I don't even know her. Every day I hurry to her blog for an update from her husband. I've been praying daily for her.

I found her blog about 6 months ago and I really love it, just last week she left my a comment on my blog, for the first time, saying she was glad to "meet me". I thought that was so sweet.

I am sorry for this time for you and her family. Hang in there. Just know people really are praying.

Hugs from Michigan
Kelly

Dana said...

Ah, control--why is this the one thing that I want most?? I know that God holds us in His hand, that He is faithful and sovereign but still I'm very often scared of how much I desire control. I have no answers, only a shared "issue, but know that I'm praying for you and for your friend.

Michelle said...

Your friend and her family are never far from my thoughts, and always in my prayers.

Christi said...

I have been following Joanne's story, and am so concerned about her. The words that you wrote reflect my feelings exactly...

Michelle (LemonadeGal) said...

I could have written this. My heart is heavy - very heavy!

BTW - love your new header. :)

Lauren said...

Love your new blog look!!! And continue to lift this family up in prayer!!

Moriah @ Please Pass the Salt said...

Yes, it certainly is. I loved that word picture Lynette left on my blog that day - we see only a few scattered pieces and yet God sees the whole puzzle, complete.

(I laugh every time I see those bare sun-tanned feet pop up on my screen.)

(Also, I bought some Batiste yesterday! I'm going to try it tomorrow!!! It's a little pathetic how excited I am about it.)

Deena said...

I've been thinking about you and Joanne all weekend. I know this is hard to watch a friend suffer. Praying for you both.

Hugs,
Deena