Do any of you ever feel disappointment? Perhaps you've been disappointed by your spouse, your children, other family members, or even a friend? Maybe you're disappointed with your marriage, or with your church? Or what about your circumstances? And dare I say disappointment with God?
Yeah, I'm there too. And just this week, I watched my husband suffer through a big disappointment. Something he was really hoping for didn't turn out exactly the way he'd hoped it would. It was heart-breaking.
And it made me wonder...what do we do with our disappointment? Yes, I know, we should take it to God. But I'm not really looking for the sunday school answer here. I've been around far too many people lately who smile and quote scripture and tell me that God is in control while they're dying on the inside. That exterior holds up...for a little while...but glimpses of the pain inside eventually makes its way out. Sometimes it peeks thru in the form of doubt, sometimes bitternesss, and oftentimes anger.
I think there really has to be some kind of balance with all of this. Being able to acknowledge the disappointment without lessening it's effect on you, and at the same time being able to remain "present" in the situation. All of which can only happen because we have the Spirit of the Living God working in and through us.
Thanks for allowing me to "think out loud" this morning. I know that writing a post like this will probably unleash fear and worry that things are not okay with us. They're fine. Really. Disappointment is a part of life. And some weeks just seem to hold more of it than others.